sometimes the exact right thing occurs at the exact right time - just when you might have needed a good
slap in the face.
slap in the face.
sometimes it happens in a place you'd never have expected.
it's been quite a long while since i've come to this spot and quite a long while since i've written anything at all. anything that isn't academic or work related, that is. the realization that this page is my safe place to write whatever i feel only dawned on me after i found this thought i'd written - and hidden away - years ago.
tonight, full of self-doubting thoughts and feelings of ineptitude,
the part that knows how to live.
i discovered this glimmer of a part of myself i desperately need right now.
the part that believes in my ability to shine. the part that fights off the self-doubt and lack of confidence. the part that knows how to enjoy all the things that bring happiness and laughter. the part that knows how to live.
and, most importantly, the part that forgot - for a little while - how easy it is to take people for granted.
enter: good slap in the face
and discovery of this passage in the pocket of an old wallet:
and discovery of this passage in the pocket of an old wallet:
...especially shocking to my stubborn cynicism is the constant realization that i have already met the person i never knew i so badly needed.
he is the man with a personality as strong as, and more volatile than, my own.
the man who matches my humor with his own sarcasm and wit.
the man who possesses the power to overcome my strongest defenses.
he is my soul mate - my once in a lifetime.
he is the fairy tale i never allowed myself to believe could be true.
he is half of the relationship i am scared to admit i have faith in,
the man who helped me accept the presence of possibilities i finally let myself believe in.
He is the man who can repeatedly leave me completely and utterly
breathless.
sometimes life decides to intervene.
sometimes it can only be explained as amazing timing.
what would you like to learn about yourself today?
