14 March 2010

alarming imagination

it's a bit disturbing, the way in which ideas and often random words pop into my head. if i could explain the process to myself i might be able to comprehend enough to create a smidgen of acceptance. instead the explanation escapes me and the tiny voice remains steadfast, quietly reiterating that i don't really want to know. also disturbing.

you'd think i'd be seasoned in unsettling and inexplicable given the inevitable shocks my life receives every few days or so. nope. i'm not. nor do i foresee a change ahead.

so, a dream involving the numerical form 666, the inside of my thigh, and a tattoo? if that doesn't disturb you then i'd be worried for your mental well-being in addition to mine. this particular dream might be my most frightening yet. 

creepiest part? i remember feeling the instance in which i consciously approved a large and intricately drawn 666. excitement. as well as the process of tattooing it on the inside of my thigh. pain.

i would rather not think of the meaning behind a dream like this.
ignorance will be my coveted bliss.
instead, let's admire horrific situations like this in which the use of
WTF & FML
is absolutely appropriate. in fact, embellishment might be required for emphasis
W.T.F?! & F.M.L!!

in the same instance that it takes a cataclysmic occurrence to truly shock me, 
i am truly disturbed by these darker aspects of my personality.

i wonder how that comes off to the general observer 
when combined with other aspects of my socially dysfunctional self...
let's hope for humorous